the worst part of getting out of bed is losing all the heat you had built up
im going to inject garlic bread into my blood stream
I think one of the greatest things that human beings can do, something we spend most of our lives avoiding, is to stare Death right in the eyes, laugh joyously, and then go right on back to getting drunk and having a good time.
Goddard Library, Clark University, Worcester, Massachusetts, 1968
(John M. Johansen)
It’s so hard to fall asleep at night. Every position I roll into, I know how you form around me but you’re not here to hold me. I miss you so fucking bad; there are universes, gardens, villages dying inside of me. I promised myself I would never get attached to someone like this. But you were so beautiful, so calming. When we touched, I could feel myself grow warm and I thought I would be okay. Now I’m laying between cold, wrinkled sheets and I can still taste you on the tip of my tongue saying, “I’ll miss you but we’ll be okay.”
summer has begun but it’s a cold, long winter in my heart.
I’ve never read something so relatable
I never thought I could die so much inside
Amon Tobin — At the End of the Day